For past 6 years, I was building an invisible wall around me. Unknowingly, I trapped myself in those walls. As it happens, I struggled to break away from those walls. Because over the years, I started feeling that the life behind those walls was normal one. But, it wasn’t. I was just convincing myself all those days. I did that to safeguard my beliefs. Today, I broke free from one of my beliefs.
Today I have done something which I never thought I will ever do. Even i have surprised myself with this actions. For years, I have been advocating myself for being a rational person- an atheist. However, today, I have broken my own image. I have installed the Ganesha idol in my home as the celebration of Ganesh chaturthi.
What can be a more funny thing in this unprecedented act than my acceptance. When Bhagyashri called me to ask whether we should celebrate the Ganesh Chaturthi, I happily agreed. I agreed as if I was waiting for her to raise the topic.
I find the roots of this sudden unprecedented action in my childhood. As I child, I enjoyed the festival of Ganesh Chaturthi. I enjoyed the dancing, music and the aura of celebration. When I was in 4th or 5th std, I had asked my father whether we could install the Ganesha idol in our home. He had denied. The reasons were obvious, it was a waste of resources. However, that wish lingered in my mind for years. And today, when Bhagyashri asked me I happily consented and celebrated with her.
As another form of explanation, I can say that I did what I did today out of sheer love. I love her, and I am ready to do whatever makes and keeps her happy. Thus, I believe, I am serving love. I want to say myself and I want to believe that i am an atheist. I wish to stay atheist. But if that comes in the way of my love, I will not keep it as a barrier.
Now coming to what my mind is thinking now, I am feeling completely normal. For past half a dozen years, I had grown distant. I had come to despice loud music, loud celebrations and ultimately religious activities. However, a man with hate in his heart is less a man. Hate for anything creates a hollow vacuum in our heart. We start to become weaker and distant from ourselves. And honestly, when we realise that we need to change, we can’t. Because by that time we become a slave to our older ways of thinking. We imprison ourselves in the self created world of dillusion and sadness.
Today, I have learnt one thing for sure, atheist or no atheist. I want to stay happy. That’s all. I do not wish to stop myself from enjoying diffrent parts of my life Only because they are behind the barrier of my beliefs.
I am fighting with myself to find a perfect balance. It’s the conflict of mind. The more time you take to take your side, the more trapped you feel. I need to make my choice and make it faster.
Do you have similar experiences? Do Share your experiences in the comments box.
Life Is very much like a train. As it happens in a train journey, the quality of journey depends on the compartment we travel in. Similarly, the quality of life is determined by which class we choose to live in. I believe, the decision as to which compartment you wish to travel in lies with the traveller. So does the
I have been really lucky to get in touch with a few influential people. What influenced me to the core was their ability to deal with situations; their way of interacting with people and their understanding about life. One thing was very much common among the influential people I got to be with. They were all sure about what they were going to do the next day. They were sure about what they wanted to do, to have and to achieve in long term as well.
In the seminar I attended a couple of days back, I was amazed by the understanding of life by the speaker. He understood one thing for sure, we do not have to understand the life. Because, we can’t. Nobody can’t. But yes, we surely can analyse it.
Let’s hear it in speakers own words. He said, “as I look at it, life is like a Train. I will tell you why I think so. Like a Train, all of us have our journeys fixed. All of us will begin (birth) at the same point and will reach to the same destination (death). Like a moving train, all of us will gradually grow old. There is no way we can reverse it. Like stations that come on the rail journey, all of us will go through different stages of life. And now, here is the thing I would like everyone to focus upon. Because, according to me, this is the most important part of the train journey. It is sure that all of us will reach to the same destination, but the secret is, when we will reach the destination all of us will give different reactions. You know why? Because we will travel in different compartments. Those who travelled in general class, they will complain that they are tired in the journey. They did not get the place to sit. There was no hygiene. And they did not enjoy the beauty of nature from the window. However, those who travelled in first class, they will enjoy the journey. They enjoy the comforts of the air conditioning and privacy. They enjoy the views from the window.”
There is actually no difference in all of us but how we choose to lead our life. Decide in which class you would like to lead your life.
I have been planning to reach out to different newspapers to publish my articles. I very much wished to see my articles being published in the national papers. It seemed too ambitious to me. For quite some time, I kind of pushed myself back. I told myself that its too tough; it requires a great quality maybe I won’t be able to provide that; I feared that nobody will reply and my efforts will be wasted.
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